Unbelievable!

Ok I'm not one for the gossip pages or celebrity rags. I am actually starting to loath these professional experts and their worthless conjure and overall stupidity. Ok before I completely lose you let me explain.

The other night I was sitting watching TV and on came a one of those complete waste of energy and airwaves with t5he top 10 celeb scandals of 2009, most of the celebs I have never heard of and most of the "scandals" I was blissfully unaware of. However my back was hurting from a home improvement project I was failing at and the remote was across the room. So I figured that some mind numbing celeb claptrap would be the perfect thing to let my mind wander to figuring out the problem I had encountered.

However one of the celebs I did know. David Carradin (sp?). Not that I am a fan or care about him... I just didn't know that he had died so it did grab my attention. Almost immediately when they started talking about the auto-erotic asphyxiation I started to lose interest and even more so when Medical Examiner and professional limelight hound, Dr. Batra (I don't care if I spell his name right) started conjuring. I really don't like the Quincy want-to-be's. They seem to only care about fame and don't have Krugman's character. I was tuning the tv back out when another Quincy want-to-be that seemed to be a vapid man with pretty face with the title of, I believe, "Expert Forensic Detective" said the weirdest thing... behind lines of conjure and likely self importantly babbling about fetishisms, the strutting moron intoned, "And it is important to investigate the possibility of crossdressing!" With an almost comical seriousness to him. How moronic can one get. Not the moron per say. Well the hateful moron too, but the show and the network that allows that misinformed tripe to be aired.

First in the purely sexual context it is called Transvestic Fetishism. Second it is not important. Nor is the any of the other sexual preference/fetishes. I don't care about his fame, or the exact way that he died. That is a dysfunction all of its own to be that into the morbidity details. It does matter if he was with 3 girls, two boys and a Bruce Lee look-a-like while hanging upside down from a giant phallus when he died. If the issue should be the poor man died no matter how, and if the people directly or indirectly responsible for his accidental death fled and/or didn't take responsibility for their actions.

And if David was a Crossdresser and wasn't just into the sexual fetishism of it, then more power to him. But it makes no difference his death and least of all is not important to his death that it has to be banded about in the same way one would say "it is important to note that X had several bouts with CANCER!"

So spotlight seeking hack (I don't know his name, nor is he important enough to waste my time to justify him by looking up what it might be) and those that listen to such spotlight seeking hacks. And actually to the bigotry against the Transgendered. Crossdressing is not a disease. You can't catch it, it isn't fatal nor does it even make one sick. It is almost more a fashion choice and gender identity expression. If you don't wear the clothing of the opposite gender that you were born (GG be careful to judge here I would guess that 95% of you or more have crossdressed), it should not be seen as anything more controversial than big floppy hats.

'Tis the Season to be FRANTIC!!!!!!

As I rest between shopping ventures with my "Chasing" play list (complete play list on the bottom of the page) pumping from my computer to my home speakers and enveloping the room and washing clean of the hustle and bustle of my shopping day. Strangely Queensryche seems to wash me clean and reinvigorate me as I write this.

But has it always been this way? You know in the annuals of fanatic American Christmas. Please remember that it is more the Germany Immigrant influence on our society that makes Christmas a bigger deal than it was at our founding. Remember one of the most decisive victors that the Colonist had over the British was on Christmas because they didn't really celebrate Christmas in the grand fashion that the German Mercenaries did.

Quick note to the Pentagon and involved U.S. politicians; those that do not heed the lessons of history are deemed to repeat it. No major Empire or Empirical Power (though I am loath to the idea that is exactly what we have become) has ever been able to maintain an Empire or win a war through the use of mercenaries. Rome came the closest with forced inscription and moving the unit too far way from home. That however would never work in today's world. No one is fooled when there is a 15% draw down in Iraq of U.S. armed forced to be replaced with a 30% build up of "contractors" which is merely a gentle euphemism for mercenaries or "Soldiers of Fortune". The United States of America is better than that and has to be better than that. If those in office don't realize this soon you will all be replaced. Rant done for now.

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Ok my friend came over as I was writing. I had to wrap it up and go out shopping again. I didn't get back until after midnight and I still have shopping to do. I almost want to cry. Honestly I hurt all over. The muscles I use when raising kids are not the same ones I use for marathon shopping apparently. Or maybe more to the point, I'm way out of shape. Sadly I admit that I have not used my Wii Fit, nor have I done any workout for a few weeks. I have plenty of excuses... all of them bad and none of them really hold water. I know what I need to do and I allow myself make excuses why I am not going to do it. It effects my overall health and well being. I know and I need to get on what I need to do.

However back on subject it is the next morning and I am hurting mentally and physically and I am not yet done. You know one of these days when I know I have marathon shopping to do I think I might just do it en femme. Just get a nice outfit together, put on some heels, makeup, and stockings, then go to it. Maybe even manage some time at a salon for a break. Mentally it might be a boon to be out of the closet. Physically I think my back would hurt less (because heels force me to stand straighter) though my butt might hurt more, I think my calves my be in the same shape they are now (I think most stockings and hose actually aides in circulation).

However there is always the bigot, danger, and gawk factors. Which is why I am still mostly closeted. But one day I have to be brave right? A big Charlie Brown...

*SIGH*

At any rate back on subject. It seems that the Holidays are too much anymore. It used to be more fun to holiday shop (I am being inclusive with Halloween, Thanksgiving, birthdays, Easter, and Christmas), and now it is seriously like work. Maybe that is because I am concerned about more than just the two of us and there is five of us. It is likely at least part of it... but still... how do you carry forward when it gets to be so hard?

Sorry that I rambled, ranted, carried on, carried over, and likely made you want to hari kari. I am scatterbrained, so it seems the posting will be.

Thoughts, opinions, generalized take on any and/or all subjects contained within?